Wednesday, 27 December 2017

VIRGIN...........

ARE YOU A VIRGIN..???



Today her life was about to change. Everything was sudden, so the boy and the girl couldn't share anything with each other. The girl had a bad past, a boy cheated on her. So, parents forced her for the marriage.

They got married and it was final that she had to leave her parents abode and settle down with this man for the entire life. she was crying partially due to emotions for her parents and partially due to a headache. Everyone was happy. She used to play all those wedding games in her childhood and was very fond of marriage. She was very happy because she was going to start a new life :)

Lemme, remind you she was forced to marry.

Everything was done. The ceremony was conducted and rituals were performed. It was time to settle down on the bed on the wedding night. The room was decorated with roses, jasmine and the smell was damn adorable.

The girl was draped in a red lehenga. She was very happy because for her marriage as it was all about meeting of two pure soul. She was nervous, it was a new journey for her. "Door knocked"
They had a sharp eye contact.

The husband came in and smiled looking at her and asked,"Are you ready"? She couldn't speak a word. 
She just smiled :)
.
The boy asked, "How are you? We couldn't talk that much before our marrige but, Now, we can share everything with each other. "Tears rolled down from her eyes"
. "Why are you crying", he asked.
. "She didn't even utter a word"
. "Huh, you are my soulmate, will you please speak now?"
.
She," I had a very bad past, I am forced to marry you, I loved a boy, he cheated on me and I am no longer a virgin".

"Haha, you are my soulmate, Why are you even thinking of that guy now, ughh, calm down, I know that we didn't share our past to each other but that is okay, What will I do of your past? Virgnity, what is that. It is just a word and nothing else, you are virgin for me. Your soul is still virgin for me.
If you love me and my touch only makes you feel me and not someone else then you are virgin for me, being virgin is just a state of mind, its purity and honesty for peace....


Monday, 25 December 2017

My Suicide Note

MY   SUICIDE   NOTE......

Friday, 8 December 2017

A frequently asked QUESTION TO ME..........

      ❤  DO YOU STILL MISS HER...❤






Do you still miss  her ?? I was questioned this since the day she left me ! By my Best Friend , By my Heart  , By Friends, By my mind as well. Even now all my "well-wishers" are asking this ! 

To be frank, I can't still figure out the answer. I always keep on retreating my mind ( even heart ) that the answer is simple "NO" . But , deep down, I know the answer will never be NO...

  • She is still a frequent visitor to my mind.
  • she is the guest who pays visit without notice and stay for a long time
  • She is still the one, i always think about
  • She is still in my writings 
  • She is still there in my blogs
  • She is even in my followers list
  • She is still there in my thoughts
  • She is there in my heart too 

But it's okhay now, i'm used to this behaviour . please don't feel happy and consider me as her mad lover.I loved her, but now i've learnt.Never fall for someone who's not willing to catch you.

i am still trying to convince my heart. it takes 9 months to create a heart ,so don't let anyone break it in 9 seconds."On the walls of my heart she is that nail, which was rusted and couldn't hold the frame of our love. Yes, the mark is still here and the hole does exist , but yet i still not find it necessary to paint it with new colours of emotions.

May be i want it as it is.
MAY be i want her to remind me of my madness
May be i want her as a memory only
May be i want her in my stories
May be i don't want her back in life

just to confirm and make sure that i don't want that life again.  i was happy with her and trying to be happy without her. Smiling as before . i'm doing cool without her, it was completely her.